Cheap Therapy

Not the entry I had originally planned on posting. That one looked more like a summary from a therapy session. This one is bad enough so I apologize. I blogged earlier that change was on the horizon. Without going into a lot of personal detail, I was not happy. I felt after years of being a wife and mother that I had slowly lost myself. I was going through the motions of my day to day routine being apathetic or doing things mediocre at best. I know it sounds cliche. If you aren't a wife and mother you might have difficulty relating to it. Also I had a year of dealing with a terminally ill mother. Much got put on hold. I'll add I'm not blaming anyone but myself. My husband is always been extremely supportive of whatever I want to do.

I'll stop whining. I am working on some answers. I've got ideas swirling in my head not ready for print. I do need to identify my interests and priorities. I only work part time. I should make the most of my days off rather than staying in, isolated, doing things around the house. I won't say I'm a loner. I have a great group of friends but if an activity isn't planned I seem to have limited face to face contact with people.

I do plan to continue writing about this whole subject. It's cheap therapy and holds me accountable.