I had a birthday last week and no I'm not posting this to get belated birthday wishes from all those followers I have. Actually I got plenty of texts, messages on facebook and twitter. I felt the love.Overall it was a nice day. I started out with a run/walk by one of the reservoirs - very beautiful in the morning. My son took me out to lunch. My husband and daughter took me out to dinner. In the back of my mind, I kept thinking it would be the last birthday I'd have my mom around and who is more connected to you on your birthday than your mother? I don't try to hold in such thoughts but on the other hand I do my best not to dwell on them. Therefore forgive me if I post a lot of my garden or running. They are activities I feel passionate about right now. When I'm depressed I usually feel nothing so being interested in something is very good. I enjoy seeing the progress whether it's my first grape tomato or the fact I ran longer without stopping than during the previous run.
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I enjoy all of your posts, regardless of topic. Totally understandable about throwing yourself into something you enjoy during this time. I'm sure your Mom would approve and wants nothing but happiness for you. No guilt in that, ok?
Well said, Mel -- I second that!!
Oh god. Yeah, this December was my first birthday without my mom, and it totally sucked. I too think about her a lot, and yet I don't talk about her a lot, at least not about her death. Dwelling just makes everyone sad. So throw yourself into other things with abandon, and enjoy what you can with your mom while you still have her.
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